The Bliss of Madness


I always find meaning
in madness.

It’s hard to know
who we are at times.
Our attention wavering
before the buttons are undone.

Plans run off with good ideas.
The future -crumbling paper mache
Our art supplies scattered
on the floor.

Now what will we do
with our hands?

Let’s put on
our mad hatter shoes.
Lose the map.
No phrase book needed.
Grab your backpack of

Take my arm.
I’ll be the voo doo
you do.
Try and not trip over my
tangled spirit.

Come with me
and let’s stroll down
a road that
will never lead to Rome,
but might lead to precinct
of hell.

Don’t worry, darling,
we can play king of the hill
on the torrid slope.
We can rattle the gates
Break the windows.
Take all that’s nimble
Dine on crumb cake
and bitter tea.

Jazz up the day.
Sun up the night.
Trust in chance and
let the cocoon unravel.

Afterwards, we’ll
distract the unmoored
shadows, and frolic with
sanity’s debris, while
madness steals the sky.

-Tosha Michelle



The afternoon is sunny,
light falls warm
The breeze through the
car window full of lilacs

Soft air caresses your bare
arms. Everything is a hazy

Nothing in the day speaks
of grief, but its there on
the news.

This should be a universe
of promise, of expectation.
The death of innocent lives,
feels so out of time with the
sky’s forget me not hue.

You think about rolling the car windows up, shutting out the blossoming world.
letting winter settle in
Fear unpacking its suitcase
in your mind.

Consumed with rage over
black hearts and evil ways.
Terrorists stealing
what should be preserved

Their shrapnel of devastation,
an infinity of darkness
littering the ground
My hate is bigger
than your hate

You fight the urge to give in
to give up.
The world is breakable, but
your spirit is not.

We are all here trying to find
our balance on this broken

Your heart constricts in a
fist of humanity.

Love pours out, gold as honey.
A living lightbulb goes off,
illuminating the transparent
glass of intimidation.

Hope waits beyond despair
You note how the heavens
embrace the sky.

The blue so deep, so thick
You could dive into it
You could swim in it
until you reach the other side-




My last post for this week. I’ll be traveling over the next couple of days and in holiday mode, (like some of you.) I’ll still be reading and commenting (as time permits) I have to. I’m addicted to your words.

I’m grateful for everyone I have met through WordPress. The blogging community is so supportive and kind. It’s refreshing Thank you for your kindness.

Happy Thanksgiving!

And now a bit of poetry and some mind numbing pop music.


When the all of us fails.
We fall to making love.
We find lines in the stars
and pretend we are the
stuff of sonnets not
horror tales.

Let me loosen your
belt. Rip the buttons
off your shirt.
We’ll find oblivion
in warm flesh
and the hard surface
of the table edge.

Knowing soon our
city will be leveled.
Our rainbow undone.
The melancholy wind
exerting control over
this poem.

Living half our lives in
fantasy, We are our
own devastation.
Words the vocation.
Words that shed
our flesh. A common
love of the brutal.
A toxic faith in

For a moment, we
pay tribute to the
scripture of light,
to our appetites,
and the deep oasis
of moans and skin.
Our own chaos theory.

We spin the illusion
of love. We live off
the debris.

-Tosha Michelle

The Fold Into Winter


I’m walking through the
Queen City,
moving toward what?
It’s late
November, late afternoon,
The light, leafs
through its book of buildings.
Tall high rises,
The trees telling a back story.
My thoughts are
dark, tangled, melancholy-
as my thoughts
tend to be. This is not a
forlorn plot.
I’m content, enough. Biding
my time, on Trade Street.

In the distance. I hear the
bluesy notes of
a saxophone. For a moment
the sky opens
for me. My imagination shines
like an angel.
The air is so vibrant and busy
my whole body
feels weightless. I let my mind
wander down a
rainbow path. Time turns around
I am the princess of a
lightless country. Free from
the angst of
my mind. The molecules part
for me. I breathe
in serenity. The horizon clear.

I hold tight to the illustrated pages
I listen to the noise
of magnolias. I’m released from my self critical ways.
The words behind words are full of
grace… for once
devoid of longing. I brush a bouquet of daisies
from my hair. My own avant-garde
parade- lace, glitter,
sunflower seeds. I hold tightly to
the plot even
as the sun decides to deviate
from my happy
narrative, turning back into
clouds, tumbleweeds,
and hornets.
I accept the fragments from
the sky. I have
no choice. The stained alleyways
beckon me.
All I can do is keep walking
All I can do is live this life.
Write this life.

-Tosha Michelle

The Absence of Sun


I try to nail sunlight

to paper.

Instead, I always

capture rain.

The light is so elusive.

It won’t even scribble

its initials on my

waterlogged pages.

The darkness is

never shy.

It always invites

itself in.

My pen has been

swimming in

its ocean for

quite some time.

I dive to bottom

of a well written sea.

The light remains


-Tosha Michelle



But even with my hand

in your hand, I want my

hand in your hand. At the

center of the eclair, I want

all the cream filling. On a

rainy day, I want more rain.

I’m in the South longing

for the South, for this

stroll in the park, for his

kiss, even as I taste his

lips. I want to wish on a

four leaf clover. I want

the music on. I want the

music off. I look to the sky

I want to float above the

clouds of my mind. I want

my granddad to hold me

up in the air, like he did,

when I was a little girl,

me, kicking to get away

and him holding on so

he wouldn’t drop me,

so he wouldn’t hurt me.

Hear me, I want to leave

when I am walking


-Tosha Michelle

Je suis a toi


Sometimes all I can think
about is chocolate cake.
Sugar seeping into my
parietal lobe.

I run my fingers through
your hair, stroke your
teeth with my tongue.

We move like batter
Clinging to each other
Stumbling around the
Desire in an embrace

You flutter to my
fingers, and I beg
you to give away
the recipe.

Some people butter
to charm and blue
eyes and measure
their lives in spilled
flour on the floor.

Going under in a
flood of batter.
Gluttony in a silk

They dream in dark
decadence and open
their mouth and hearts
to confectionary splendor.

Happy to get lost in
frosting, strong arms
hard kisses, and oven
baked seduction.

-Tosha Michelle