There’s a place
reserved just for him.
It’s not hidden.
No other bodies lie there.
A feeling-
bare walls.
Open door.
I think his eyes made it.
I say what I intend to say,
to say this affection, affectionately
not affected is true,
this sayable place that
is his.
-Tosha Michelle
and on and unrelated note
my cover of John Lengend’s “All Of Me”
I’m the woman who believes in thorns,
the beauty of fallen fruit,
and lavishing love on the lovable
and unlovable.
I’m generous, difficult, and incomplete.
I have spells of sullen iciness,
and moments of hot tea and clarity.
I’m the woman who can only be
of this world for moments at a time.
My soul affixed to solitude
and one darkness after another.
When the lights finally come back on,
I confess I like a warm arm around my waist
and a strong shoulder to rest my chaotic head.
I’m also partial to masculine fingers
that know how to coax my color back,
under silk sheets, with creative words,
and hands of purpose.
I’m often confused. Do I succumb
to the screeching crow
or pay homage to the nightingale?
I’m the woman who would go
anywhere to leave you,
but will beg you to come with me.
When we get there, I’ll fight with you
over the map and then kiss you
on the street.
I’m an expert at backbends.
I practice them every night
under memory’s disco light.
I hide an extra heart under my bed
in a packed suitcase of longing.
I’m the woman waiting for good enough
to be enough. Still, always wanting
more of much. Knowing life, like art,
is what we make it.
We all deserve something more than nothing.
I’m insignificant, and at times narcissistic.
I’m the broken woman.
cracked, bent. Damaged.
I’m the woman becoming whole,
becoming more me with each new break, with each new tear in my heart
-Tosha Michelle
My cover of “Night Changes”
Listen to Night Changes by Tosha Michelle 2020 #np on #SoundCloud
But we’re not so starry-eyed anymore
Like the perfect paramour you were in your letters
And won’t it all just come around to make you
Let it all unbreak you to the day you met her
But it’d make you better
It’d make you better
My darling friend Randy is a big fan of my silly lists so this is for her and all you men out there. I must confess these are my favorite kind and it’s about time I did a new one.
What Women Wished Men Knew
1. We don’t like mixed signals. Mixed drinks on the other hand
2. Don’t walk ahead of us. Walk with us and hold our hand.
3. Chocolate and jewelry will get you out of a world of trouble
4. The kitchen counter, up against a wall, on your desk are great places to place knickknacks or if you can think of something better to do with the aforementioned, we’d be totally down for that
5. Sometimes we cry. Deal with it
6. If were having sex with you, odds are we care, so proceed cautiously when it comes to our feelings
7. When we talk, listen. Yes, with your ears and with your heart and mind
8. Sometimes being romantic just means being there and in the moment
9. Don’t be afraid of that universal, wonderful little four letter word…
Menu
10. You are unique and special but Beyoncé sums ir up best. Don’t you ever get to thinking
Drop everything now
Meet me in the pouring rain
Kiss me on the sidewalk
Take away the pain
‘Cause I see, sparks fly, whenever you smile
In a totally different vein than my usual posts, let’s talk about the ideal partner.
Here’s my laundry list. I think I may be too picky. 😜
1. Tall. Height is my one superficial quirk. He can be bald and chunky just not short. Hypocritical, since I’m only 5’2
2. He must be loyal, intelligent, kind but not meek. Sense of humor is a must. I need someone who can make me laugh
3. Slightly nerdy but artsy
4. Must like my two daughters and my rock dtar cat.
5. Passionate about life and me.
6. Must love to travel and go out but also happy to just stay ar home and cuddle on the couch
7. Socially conscious. Awake and aware.
8. Liberal minded and urban
9. Affectionate and loving
10. Lastly, he must treat me like a princess 😜
Thanks to Alex for the nomination. if you get a chance check out his blog and follow. He’s like the male version of me only British and much cooler
Rules
Post the award on your blog.
Thank the person who nominated you.
Answer the 11 questions they set you.
Pick another 11 bloggers.
Give them 11
1. Which literary character would you most like to be?
Anne Shirley, from Anne of Green Gables. It was one of my favorite books growing up. I really identified with the talkative, imaginative girl she was. i’m also a huge romantic and prone to mischief and bouts of insecurity
2. Which TV character do you find most inspiring?
Olivia Benson from Law and Order SVU The character is tenacious, brave, principled and strong
3. If you could choose one specific drink to make healthy which would you choose?
chocolate mint milkshake
4. Which actor/actress did you think would become more famous but faded away?
Neve Campbell. She seemed to really be going places
5. What was the first album you bought/downloaded? When did you last listen to it?
Whitney Houston. It was a birthday gift. It was her first album. I remember listening to it religiously as a kid. I haven’t listened to it in ages, but I should. Her voice was beyond amazing. It was truly devastating when she died
6. Which famous mystery do you wish you could know the answer to?
I’d like to know who the zodiac killer is
7. Have you ever had a film ruined by a bad cinema experience?
Not that I can recall
8. Which family member are you most like and why?
My mother. We are both beautifully complex. I also like to think I have her sense of humor and style. She’s always been ultra hip
9. What’s the most disappointed you’ve been with a film adaption from a book?
I really didn’t think the 50 shades movie truly captured the brilliance of the book. I’m kidding. Seriously, I didn’t like either adaptation of Wuthering Heights
10.Which famous person do you wish could live next door to you?
Jon Stewart. However, he would probably get a restraining order against me. I’d be trying to hang out with him all the time
11. What would your dream profession be?
Broadway star
My nominees
Eric
Casey
Niles
Tony, aka in love with Jersey
Charlie
Jane
Terry
Randy
Amanda
Jackie
Eachel
My questions
1. why did you start blogging?
2. what authors inspire you?
3. if you were a mixed drink, what would you be?
4. how would you describe yourself in three words?
5. if you or Alice in Wonderland, would you stay there or come back and tell the story?
6. are you more like fire or ice?
7. what’s your favorite quote?
8. milk chocolate or dark?
9. what’s your idea of a perfect day?
10. if you could live in any other country, where would you choose?
11. what’s your favorite movie? Why?
Nothing gonna hurt me with my eyes shut
I can see through them
I can see through them
I am drawing pictures I’m evading
I will not use them
I will not use them
For my German friend. She loves all things Taylor. She’s also into spanking apparently, but that’s for a different blog😜
Have a lovely weekend. I hope it’s one to write about xx
we know it’s never simple, never easy.
Never a clean break, no one here to save me.
You’re the only thing I know like the back of my hand,
And I can’t breathe without you
But I have to.
Breathe without you
But I have to.
Everything I Never Told You 