F. Scott Fitzgerald speaks
to me through gin and
chandelier music while I
hibernate in the winter
wasteland of my mind.
No longer mourning
the absence of you.
I’m going to fill up
on vitamin D. D for
determination. D for
deadly intent to create.
Let your snow fall.
I’ll wipe the frost
from my eyes.
I’m going to lock the
door. Watch as time
breaks away.
Disconnect for awhile.
Hang out with the bones
in my closet. I have an
uneasy relationship with
the past. I’m tired of the
unrest. I’m going to put
on my red heels, bob my
hair, and reconnect with
the skeletons.
We’ll dance the Charleston
through every room
until I’m dizzy from
spinning, until I am
unghost and unfettered.
The bones shattered.
The windows of my mind
clean once more.
It’s not about what was.
It’s about freedom.
I pour sugar on the
future and swallow time
in the last shot of gin.
If you ask me
about happiness,
I’ll give you my
wounds instead.
Singing the song of
the swan.
I stick a bandaid
on my heart and
run off with the
jazz quartet.
Fitzgerald nods his approve
as we shimmy off into the
golden- on the edge of a
cliff fall night.
-Tosha Michelle