I watered the grudge with a
fervent devotion of a priest
giving communion. I watered
it with the determination of
a drunk on his fourth glass
of gin. The destructive
clockwork of a not so
righteous self.
The cactus in my heart
erupting. I watered it everyday
with a can of venom. My hands
blistering over from the hate.
The fluid and its dark nutrients
taking root, until the petals
bloomed over and clotted my
brain, until there was nothing
left but arid air, laced with
regret, and the silence of
time wasted. The stale
taste of a garden grown
on the wreckage of malice
Gone. The long reign of
bitterness. The tight reign
of hurt feelings. The shards
of anger, shaken from my
eyes. I finally see the sterile
landscape clearly.
How the realization stings.
-Tosha Michelle
Dynamic, yet heartbreaking work, Tosh. An artist like no other. Love.
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Larry, thank you.xo
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You are a chasm of the human emotion. Brilliant, my friend.
Love & Hugs,
Ellie (Elena M)
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Otherwise known as an emotional basket case. Haha Thanks for the kind words. Much love x
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Ah, we are alike! ๐ lol Seriously though, I “get” this and like it a lot for not pulling punches.
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Thanks. My soul blogging sista.
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Very good, I enjoyed reading this.
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Thanks x
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A familiar experience rendered with pathos and talent. Love.
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After reading your most recent poem, Issues, I was quite surprised to scroll down and find this wonderful gem… It was then I realized the absentness and simplicity of Issues must have been intentional. This poem is the exact reverse of that, so alive with euphemism and so tenderly displayed… real emotions young poet… enjoyed this much.
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I did write Issues in a form that APPEARS simple. However, there is a lot of subtext in it. Subtext that is quite deep. I intentionally left things unsaid .The narrative goes far beyond what is actually on the page.
I’m
happy you liked The Grudge. It’s nice to know it struck a chord. I appreciate you stopping by.
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I know what you mean…. A lot of my own poetry retains its most special meanings purely for me – things left unsaid in the poem itself that would otherwise change the readers perception of it. It’s selfish of me in a way – reading things in my own poems that bring explicit feelings of joy to me – but am happy when someone else enjoys it for whatever they find there as well. In fact, one of my favorite poets once said ‘I don’t write poetry for other people. I write it for myself. But it makes me so very happy to know that others like it.’ , Sylvia Plath.
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Plath it’s one of my favorites too. I I actually got a lot of positive feedback on Issues. Mostly, from women who picked up on the themes of abandonment,self worth and childhood trauma. Poetry, as any form of art is so subjective I’m always happy when someone reads one of my poems and feels a connection. However. utimately, like you, I write for myself, but always with the hope that my words resonate. ๐
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Wow. I love this. I don’t know what else to say. It’s just hitting me in such a deep place.
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Thank you. ๐
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Very well done with this piece of work!!!
It’s strong, makes a statement and reaches out powerfully. Thank you for a wonderful post.
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Thank you for reading and commenting
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Excellent. And so universal. Love this, Tosha!
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Thanks Meg xx
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I have nothing to add to what’s already been expressed, except to say this is powerful stuff. I always appreciate someone willing to explore their dark side. It takes courage to go to those places.
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Thanks so much my Australian friend. Hope you have a glorious weekend
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Thank you. I hope yours is splendid too.
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You’re welcome. Thanks ๐
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Reading this just slowed me down and brought me in to a reflective state with you, and I love that. Hope all is well and I hope you have a great day, Tosha. ๐
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Thank you so much. Things are going well. I hope all is right in your world
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Glad to hear that! Yes, all is well for me too. Busy time of year with summer winding down and back to school, but we will get through it! ๐
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You will Good luck with it. ๐
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Thanks, Tosha. xo
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“Mary, Mary, quite contrary,
How does your garden grow?”
With a little love and water the grudge can flourish, ๐ growing out of control, it can even have a mind of its own. Wonderfully creative, a great start to my Friday. ๐ Enjoy the day. ~ Mia
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That’s so true. It’s really easy to hold on to anger. Wishing you a lovely Friday and weekend ahead.
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Thank you, please have a lovely weekend too.
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Yes sadly too much time is wasted on revenge . Revenge is best served by moving on gracefully and making a success of your life. xxxx
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True wisdom. I hope you are well
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Thank you I am fine, how are you? ๐
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I’m well. Glad it’s the weekend
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Me too!
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Yep, holding onto those negative emotions is such a drain in the end. Pity the people who can’t let go…
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Total waste of time for sure. Happy Friday
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Thank you, darling, you, too!
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You’re welcome๐
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Graphic and gripping from the first line. I wonder when you are ready to explore the “release of the grudge.” I am sure you will artfully consider this as well. Thanks
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Thank you ๐
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Everything you write Tosha, EVERYTHING
sighs
just so
beautiful
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Thank you so much ๐
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Wow, thats a really visual one! I would drink your poison! I’m just the kind of guy that would ๐ XX
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Ha! Happy Saturday ๐
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And you T! XX
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