A Letter to My No One.

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To Whom it May Concern,

Forgive me for writing unsolicited poetry about you. It’s just you bring out the John Keats in me (some would say without the talent). I know I lack decorum. Is it that insane that I want to buy you flowers? Ruminate on your good looks? Try and capture your wit and grace in mad verse?

I may never walk beside you in the night, but you’re still my favorite scar/ star. My poetry longs to stir your breath, knowing in reality you are an inert thing. I look for any form of self justification to keep holding on. This will only end in tears. But still I turn to pen, to paper, to assuaged you. I hope my words are a benediction to your being. I long to neither save nor condemn you but merely lace your altar with beauty.

Your lightning holds no promise of rain, only frost. Yet, just like a misguided dove, I keep flying in the wrong direction. I’m not concerned with the cold. I’m like the wind, a contradiction. I never can right my mind for long. How do I scourge indecisiveness from my heart? I’m stuck in perpetual twilight. Nothing can be salvaged. My soul should dream no further, but it does, and I do. You’re a part of my weather now. Your humidity is felt inside of me.

I must close this letter and get back to my life. It’s time to dance and stumble around with shadows. But first, I’ll look out the window and see the dry leaves stirring and shaking as they fall to the ground, and imagine you. One last time. One more time.

-Tosha Michelle

84 thoughts on “A Letter to My No One.

  1. “I may never walk beside you in the night but you’re still my favorite scar/ star”.

    My favorite line. It made me think of a person in my life I could say this about. P.S. I’m pretty sure SN thinks this is about him. 😉 xo

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  2. Truly beautiful. Your poetry is one I always look foward to reading. Always heartfelt and sincere. And Keats is one of my favorite poets. This to me, brought the same emotions of “When I have fears that I may cease to be”
    Thank you for sharing.
    Take care Tosha

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  3. Only frost. You write of my distant pains, & broken promises (as for many others I’m sure) better than a heart can explain to the mind. The world can be so cold.
    You always have a way to shine the light of warmth on it. ♡ it….

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  5. You’ve painted a picture with this one Tosha. Great job. Especially like: “you’re still my favorite scar/ star” and “Your lightning holds no promise of rain, only frost”.
    Btw, I’m going on a hiatus for about a month. I’m just sooooo busy. Going to get done what I need to get done and then come back with a fresh start.
    🙂

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    1. It’s to an old friend of mine. We no longer talk I just use the angst of that friendship to write poetry. I have a fairly happy life. I’m not inspired by the light . I draw on the dark times of my past for inspiration. However, the letter can be about you if you want. Ha.

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      1. I was just curious if something happen to you. Or someone upset you. I worry about my friends, so I just wanted to check up on you making sure you’re okay. 🙂

        The dark themes are always the best to write about and expressing all human emotions. 🙂

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  6. This is beautiful, poetic prose, Tosha. So lovely indeed. (Sorry I’ve been off in my little writing world for a while. I’m trying to get some fiction done before I start a month-long temp job … which I’m not too thrilled to be doing, frankly, but I need the $.)

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      1. Double sigh! And get this, I’ll be grading student tests! Yuck! 🙂 But a woman’s gotta earn a living any way she can, right? I just wish it could be writing my own words (rather than reading some kids’ LOL). As that Arnold S. (can’t spell his last name) once said: “I’ll be back!” Well, actually he said “baak,” LOL

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  7. Girl, your words never cease to amaze me!
    Now write a letter to yourself, telling you how much you love & appreciate yourself! 😉 ❤
    Peace, love & self-love,
    Sherrie
    Sherrie Miranda's historically based, coming of age, Adventure novel “Secrets & Lies in El Salvador” is about an American girl in war-torn El Salvador:
    http://tinyurl.com/klxbt4y
    Her husband made a video for her novel. He wrote the song too:

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