Anyone

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I’d love anyone and everyone
not to love him by comparison.

Anyone.

The hairy guy at the gym who always calls me sweetie.

The woman with purple hair who works at the supermarket

I have worn out words and welcomes. I’ve praised the mundane.
Joked about the sacred. Showed my scars. Bared my sadness.
Allowed myself to be autopsy by pen.

For my next chapter, I must jump in shark infested water
for some new material. Perhaps, find another precious
toxin to ingest.

You can’t unlove certain ideas
no matter how much you try to
write them away. No matter how ridiculous.
There he is again, my unloved one, my unloved only.

-Tosha Michelle

Listen to The Scientist (Coldplay Cover) by Tosha Michelle 2020 #np on #SoundCloud

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96 thoughts on “Anyone

      1. It just happens. Even if not romantically. People start thinking in some off game of chance they are better than me and poof their goes their love for me. I wonder if they had loved me at all? Sometimes, I know, perhaps, I have some faults. However, I do not really justify my flaws. I justify a situation where my flaws may have come out. Because I am not a irrational idiot. I love intensely. I love most people as they are fucking incredible if they know their really wonderful potencies. This was a beautiful poem. I read another of yours I will find again. I am sorry forgot to “like ” and comment on that one.

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      2. I guess. Sometimes I shouldn’t love too freely. Hmmm, I think you inspired a poem in me. I will dedicate it to you for this comment.

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  1. You never fail to impress, Tosha. Even though I’m sure the inspiration for this poem was probably very specific, I still actually felt as though I could relate. Especially this part…

    “I have worn out words and welcomes. I’ve praised the mundane.
    Joked about the sacred. Showed my scars. Bared my sadness.
    Allowed myself to be autopsy by pen.”

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  2. Ever moving forward, day by day, closer to a love supreme.

    One day you’ll find the one who will not heal your scars or hurts but show you his own and never reopen yours..
    Scars fade and eventually become tiny marks on our heart or body with a story behind them….and us.

    Well done.

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  3. Never possible to unlove. It’s like we can yank the plug out but everytime we look back at it…damn thing is still lit up like a Christmas tree.
    You write my past experiences so beautifully, Tosha. ❤

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  4. Beautifully penned whether for an autopsy or not. Another piece I can relate to except that it is actually possible to bypass a creep. Some people have such egotistical and horrid behaviour it is not even worth looking back, except for poetic inspiration 😀

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  5. Got Moonshine ?
    I’m probably way off here.
    Love seems as a selfish act, of a selfless heart.
    ” The heart wants, what the heart wants.”
    As the mind that will, foot the bill.
    Unloved? I get it. Just ain’t feeling it.
    You seem to kind for that. ♡♡♡♡♡

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  6. Certain things stay with you, and you embrace them. That’s where our power and desire to write gestates. Sometimes, trying something new and dangerous is alright, too, but never let go of what makes you who you are.

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      1. Nah. Just messing with you. Everything I write is a fact. For example, my next poem is called an Ode to an Idiot and has a very violent theme. It’s based on my friendship with a son of a ……anyway…. Stay tuned

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  7. For my next chapter, I must jump in shark infested water
    for some new material. Perhaps, find another precious
    toxin to ingest.

    holy! shit! This is powerfully moving and captivating.

    Correct me of I’m wrong here…but I believe I’m sensing some troubles in your personal life with a certain love one? Either way, I love this poem a lot. 🙂

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  8. Quite unique. This was brilliant:

    “For my next chapter, I must jump in shark infested water
    for some new material. Perhaps, find another precious
    toxin to ingest.”

    The whole piece reminded me of a few different circumstances. Quite enjoyable, and blunt too!

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      1. No problem. Believe it or not had this piece loaded on a tab since yesterday, but hadn’t read it ’till a bit a go. Am really bad about loading many links to read and not catching up to much later \:

        But definitely enjoyed it though. And had to comment too! Always figured if someone’s taking the time to write something and if it resonates with you then one should take the time to let them know when possible. Just be glad it’s not still gathering dust on a tab! Totally jesting.

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