All American Girl

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I wish I could look through fog,
live the serene life
be content to catch
the sun I can.

I, who’ve been pressed
and molded into
some American dream,
feel more confined
than liberated.

The back story- I’m more
a wanderer than a watcher
More enticed by the exotic
than familiar. I confess.
I’m unsettled.

Today’s wind tugs at me.
The sky urges me to fly.
My mouth hungry for the nectar
of fallen fruit

Inside my heart, an escape plan.
Outside my body glued
to habit and structure.

Rebellion turns my head.
It clings to me like mist.

Briefly, my ribs expand and
I flutter before reality
pulls me back.
Heaving then settling.
Leaving me with
the sticky aftereffects
and in that interlude,
I know my soul would soar
if my mind would only
let it.

-Tosha Michelle

My cover of “Underneath” by Adam Lambert. This song has so much meaning for me. (Dedicated to Heather, Niles, Jane, Terry, Larry, Jennifer,Ian, Diane and all my lovely friends. Thanks for putting up with me.

120 thoughts on “All American Girl

      1. You’re so very welcome and thank you. Ha-ha, I’m laughing, I was just thinking about that the other day after reading one of your poems, definitely “soul sister” but I think I’m the “evil twin”!

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  1. Fascinating write Tosha. I wonder how many women feel this tug o war going on inside them and not just Americans. Your writing always delivers the message in waves which are both intriguing and compelling. Really loved this one. xoxo

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    1. Thanks. I think a lot of women do especially as we get to a certain age, and start thinking how we want to spend the rest of our lives. I think the restlessness can be healthy if it inspires us to grow and become better.

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      1. I listen to your songs for a hour now. I went to Youtube and I couldn’t find you. You are amazing. I would love to hear you sing the classic. “Perhaps, perhaps”. Perfect for your voice.

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  2. Yay!! I get to like a post.
    A brief Fanks to WP for not being a twot today!
    As for your mind letting your soul soar: if it let it soar any higher we wouldn’t be able to read your words.
    Aaaaarrrrrrgggggghhhhhh! I’m being nice. Freaky.
    Change is as good as a rest.

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  3. Love this Tosha! You are an all-American girl! 🙂 So filled with wanderlust and curiosity…the urge to set out to explore and know the great unknown. I hope you are always able to find and embrace those moments that feed your soul in the midst of the responsibilities that also make you adorable! 🙂

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  4. Your words ring true to so many people I imagine, they certainly do to me. There is this great dream society places in front of us all – and it is inspiring – but sometimes there are these little paths along the way that are way more enticing and we are lost forever 🙂 Those places need to be celebrated as well – so thank you for your voice once again!

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  5. Reblogged this on sherriemiranda1 and commented:
    Tosha is such a talented young woman. Her poem reminds me so much of my youth & other stages of my life. It is so calming when you finally find a life that fits you like a glove. I wish that life for her and all who are wandering through life trying to find something, but unsure what they are looking for.
    Tosha, thanks for the poem, as well as the art & video. 😊😜😉😳😘
    Peace, love & real living to all,
    Sherrie

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